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L.O.M.L

LOML , standing for Love Of My Life . that is him* . prettie much a big misunderstandingg as far as “break” and “break up” . i guess were on a break . giving him his space and time to realize what he wants . in the end it’ll benefit us if were meant to be . tonight , i reactivated my FB. for the first time all week , im feeling better. he told me tonight in all clarity that he wanted to be with me . i simply asked ; do you wanna be with me to make me happie , or yourself? TRICK QUESTION mind you . he replied “for both of us to be happie” . when i read that text, THAT told me that he’s already learned so much frm this experience. a relationship is a two way street, if only ONE person is happy, then it’ll never work . he realizes that now and i feel content . when this break is over and we get back to being an US , i can honestly say were going to be stronger than ever. and i cant wait to see whats in store regarding our future. i know i know , this is totally opposite frm last nights post. buht i do love him , dont trust him anymore, but that can be gained back in time. we’ve put a lot of work into our relationship and if its worth it , work at it. which is what we are going to do. sometimes i forget that im his first serious relationship, so he has no idea how to handle certain situations , but it’ll get better . as a person, i feel stronger . 

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The title is self explanitory.. It’s Been 3 days since the break up .. Everyday gets a little bit easier but it’s still incredibly hard to deal with.. I know it’s just a ‘break’ but I never imagined us being where we are now..you were never happy , you lied to me & now I’m the one broken, empty & crying myself to sleep every night. I’m not perfect & maybe I pushed you away, but I know for a fact I was at least honest.. You ‘don’t know if you wanna be with me’ but then you say you do. Your confused. You need time. I need time. Your scared. I’m hurt. Relationships aren’t going to be perfect, not even close. They take two people who care about each other enough to work at it & make it better. Your in my future,your who i want. I’ve never questioned that. But now , I question our whole past 9 months, do you really even love me? You lied to me daily & now Im supposed to believe you when you tell me I love you. I don’t trust you at all anymore. I put my heart and soul into you, you say I’m young & I need to go have fun, not realizing that I don’t need to go out & ‘party’ I’m content with having fun with you.. I’m settling down. Well, that’s what I wanted to do. We definitely don’t see eye to eye but theres no one else in this world I’d rather spend my life with than you. You know me better than anyone, my family adores you & I just couldn’t start over again.. If this is the end , then let me know now so I can move on & get stronger.. If we are going to try again , I need to know things will be different. We’ll work harder. Improve ourselves as not only a whole, but as individuals. If our love really is as strong as I feel it is, then this is the beginning of something new.

alrightt ,

so just deleted facebook &; quite frankly im relieved. if your wondering what im doing, who im talking to &; how i am , too bad ; remember YOU walked away. 

_its temporary thoee, i just need time . .

Day 20&#160;; a picture of somewhere you&#8217;d love to travel , SYDNEY, AUSTRALIA . probably the most amazing place on earth to me , mind you australia guys are soooooooo gorgeous &amp;; there accents are just sexyyy to me . although its expensive as hell, i can&#8217;t wait til ONE DAY i can say i&#8217;ve been there&lt;3 

Day 20 ; a picture of somewhere you’d love to travel , SYDNEY, AUSTRALIA . probably the most amazing place on earth to me , mind you australia guys are soooooooo gorgeous &; there accents are just sexyyy to me . although its expensive as hell, i can’t wait til ONE DAY i can say i’ve been there<3 

Reblogged from everybodylovesmegg-deactivated2

Condom & Tampon .

everybodylovesmegg:

Condom says to the tampon ” You put me out of a job for 1 week, every month ” .

The tampon replies , ” And when you don’t do your job properly , I loose mine for 9 months ” (:

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Day 19&#160;; a picture of something you love to do . listen to music , it never fails to put me in a better state of mindd daily . idk what i&#8217;d do without my ipodd .

Day 19 ; a picture of something you love to do . listen to music , it never fails to put me in a better state of mindd daily . idk what i’d do without my ipodd .

Day 18&#160;; a picture of your biggest insecurity . my ENTIRE bodyy . i know im &#8220;skinny&#8221; buht i seriously hate my bodyyy . this picture is oldd, but its the onlyy body shot i havee .

Day 18 ; a picture of your biggest insecurity . my ENTIRE bodyy . i know im “skinny” buht i seriously hate my bodyyy . this picture is oldd, but its the onlyy body shot i havee .

Day 17&#160;; a picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently. FTBS, gas prices are goin up to almost 4 dollars a gallon . everyone is strugglin&#8217; right now in this economy . i drive a v8 so its almost $80 now to fill up my tank when it used to be $45 . THIS is impacting not only my life, buht everyones . 

Day 17 ; a picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently. FTBS, gas prices are goin up to almost 4 dollars a gallon . everyone is strugglin’ right now in this economy . i drive a v8 so its almost $80 now to fill up my tank when it used to be $45 . THIS is impacting not only my life, buht everyones . 

Day 16&#160;; a picture of someone who inspires you . my mom &amp;; my little sister! my mom because shes so strong &amp;; does so much for our family and everyone else rather than herself . ive always called her wonder woman and she truly is . shes successful and works hard at what she does . my little sister inspires me to be a better person becos she looks up to me so muchh . everything i do i know i have to make smart choices so she can follow in a good* role models shoes&lt;3 

Day 16 ; a picture of someone who inspires you . my mom &; my little sister! my mom because shes so strong &; does so much for our family and everyone else rather than herself . ive always called her wonder woman and she truly is . shes successful and works hard at what she does . my little sister inspires me to be a better person becos she looks up to me so muchh . everything i do i know i have to make smart choices so she can follow in a good* role models shoes<3 

Day 15&#160;; a picture of something you want to do before you die . PARIS , that is my goal, i want to go to the love capital of the world &lt;3 that&#8217;d be amazing&#160;! 

Day 15 ; a picture of something you want to do before you die . PARIS , that is my goal, i want to go to the love capital of the world <3 that’d be amazing !